time for ourselves

Salam

yesterday I accompanied my mom to her college mate pengebumian. (fine bm. kalau nak cakap funeral macam orang putih mati aje. tak enak betul.zzz)

arwah was one of my parents college mate when they were in Portsmouth,uk, way back 30 years ago. she died of colon cancer, at the age of 53.

fet friends, now i can't imagine what will happen to us 30 years later. hope we can still keep in touch although we are in our fifties. like my parents did with their friends.

so back to the pengebumian, nowadays pakcik penggali kubur dah tak guna cangkul or whatsoever.

they used this ;

technology nowadays. even pakcik penggali kubur took advantage of that!
daripada sedih nak tengok arwah kena tanam, tiba-tiba teruja pulak sebab pakcik tu pakai bende alah tu. HAHA. tak patut betul =____="

when ustaz recite the talkin, it strucked deeply in my heart.

insaf. rasa kerdilnya diri ini. terasa sekejapnya hidup ini. Allah itu Maha Besar.

we, people that are still alive should sometimes spend our time by attending such events, before we die.

sebab antara cara untuk mengubati hati ialah, menziarahi jenazah, melihat wajah si mati, melihat pengebumian jenazah, mendengar dan menghayati saat talkin dibacakan.

and i did all that yesterday. it's true, my heart felt calmer then ever, my mind was so relax, i forgot everything about my duniawi stuff during that time.

when i looked around the graveyard, i felt that it was such a beautiful view. a view that made my heart felt so calm and peaceful. SUBHANALLAH.

and all i think about that time is death.

well, anyway, people that are remembering death is considered brilliant people kan?
not only brilliant in mind, but also brilliant in heart and spiritually.

so people, when anybody that you knew passed away, please spare some time for yourself to visit arwah. not only to pay some respect to arwah's family, but also for us as a reminder. a HUGE reminder that we are going to face death one day.

and today, it's already 4 years since my aunty yam passed way, and arwah was nilam's mother. she died at a young age in her early 30's, and Allah loves her more. It's already written in her fate that she died early in the morning during subuh, on friday, 27th January 2006 because of heart problem.

on that morning, a 5-month old baby girl crawled on her breathless mommy, cried and cried endlessly, but her mommy didn't wake up at all.

now that baby is a grown up kid, already enrolled in a kindergarten. and a fast learner indeed. a very bright young child.

if her mother is still alive, I'm sure she'll be so happy looking her only daughter, Nur Nilamsari, growing up so fast.

sometimes nilam said to us that she dreamt arwah came to her, reciting Lailahaillallah, and comforting her to sleep.

Al-Fatihah....

wassalam~

(p/s : Bonjourno to roma! We received your postcard yesterday abangah! ;) )